Archive for the 'Inside My Head' Category
Yes, I’ve played more games of tennis than I care to count. I’ve bowled so much, I felt like my arm was going to fall off. (New high score: 263!!!) I found out that Brunswick Bowling was released for the Wii. AMF gets released in November. I enjoy it because it’s exercise that I like, […]
Before I started Body for Life in March, I bought a suit — and was thoroughly depressed. I was a tight 50. Today, Tink and I made the journey out to Kohl’s, and they tell you — expect great things. I tried on several leather jackets, and a couple suit jackets. The 44s are a […]
“Faith precedes the miracle.” – Unknown
This is one of those times when I actually invite you in. Normally, it’s stay at arms length or I bite. But seriously. Have you ever had one of those weeks where, for the most part, everything went better than you could have ever hoped (or prayed) for? This is one of those weeks. I […]
The title is from a Pet Shop Boys song. We haven’t been in Ramblings 4.0 too long, and while my postings haven’t been of epic length, there’s been plenty of changes going on behind the scenes — not just external to myself, but inside as well. It is not easy… I’m learning, I’m feeling my […]
Being someone who lived in the darkness for far too long in my 38 years, I have to admit that having a more positive outlook on life takes some getting used to. The entire detox process is not easy, but very necessary if I ever intend on being whole and happy with whom I am. […]
I’m on my way to bed. The house is down and secure. I am more at peace this evening than I have been in a long time. Words escape me. I’ll try again after sleep. One word to sum up my inner self: Happy.
It’s been a strange month, my friends. I’m in the process of reconstructing my life from the ashes where I’ve burned bridges, but unfortunately, no bodies. In the interest of not having myself sued for harassment, I can’t give you the sordid details of my sordid life. What I *CAN* say, however, is that I […]
Good evening everyone. It’s good to be home again. I’ve finally started to unwind. I’ve received my book Kything: The Art of Spiritual Presence so I have some reading to do, just to see what, if any, good it can do me. There’s changes brewing inside of me — as I attempt to have faith […]
“Better Days” (circa 1976, Jane Olivor’s album “First Night”) Well another day has gone after all is said and done you are here as you were before. Cos it feels as if we’ve been through it all and back again now I know there’ll be something more…. No more tears… left to hide… we have […]
Well, Akismet, thankfully, has now blocked over 46,000 pieces of comment and trackback spam. That’s freed up my time to do other things, like ramble stupidly about a book of photography, assorted weight loss techniques, lyrics to obscure songs you could find on the web, tired and trite jokes that a grade schooler would be […]
If you pray, to whichever Deity you pray (or even if it’s just asking for help from a power higher than yourself), please remember my grandmother, Katie Cottle. She turns 84 in December. She’s successfully battled melanoma (1984/85) and stage IV Non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma (1995). She went in for a routine colonoscopy this morning and had […]
No, not you. but someone else. Although I was naive, I wasn’t quite so blind as to believe in all the lies you told to me. The problem of my knowing? Finding out I’m numb and that I really don’t care. Years ago, I might have wanted an explanation. But since you did nothing but […]
Goddess Dawn, over at Caterwauling, asked “Do you people know what I’m willing to give up to be happy?” She’s not the only one who feels this way. When it all comes down to it, there are different ways of being happy, of creating your own happiness, and of making yourself happy. My problem is […]
Monday’s over. I’ve done a “mountain hike” on the treadmill, managed a healthy dinner, and just finished my nightly snack. The day is finally shedding from my shoulders and I’m unwinding. PR’s mother ended up in the emergency room after taking a tumble today. Her sister (his aunt) was in the next room over in […]
I really need to learn to keep my mouth shut and not say what’s on my mind. Especially to people I do not know well.
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…you don’t really want to mess with me tonight…. I’m in a weird mood tonight as the rain and storm and lightning passes through the area. It’s been a good day, all things considered. It was the end of our fiscal year, and I had to sit through a butt numbing meeting telling me nothing. […]
Don’t be irreplaceable. If you can’t be replaced, you can’t be promoted. Always remember that you’re unique. Just like everyone else. Never test the depth of the water with both feet. If you think nobody cares if you’re alive, try missing a couple of car payments. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile […]
I have some friends that I’d like you to include in your prayers: one is dealing with depression and needs prayers for healing. As someone who has dealt with the debilitation that depression can cause, my heart goes out to you. Another one of my friends is suffering from migraines brought on by the changes […]
Forwarded to me by HappyChef… Life is short: Break the rules, Dance freely, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile.
Most of what you read on the Ramblings is my life — at arms length. I keep it that way simply because I don’t let too many people get close to me, as I’ve been burned too many times. Between that, the walls I’ve built around me, and the barbed wire, I think I’m pretty […]
I know there’s no way in hell, after Diva’s “confession” last night, that I would ever consider riding with them. I hate to ride with RadioMan and FlyBoy, as this is a time for them to get to know each other better, deepening a friendship. It’s because of that, I’m seriously considering backing out completely. […]
Looking back (no, this isn’t going to turn into a Garth Brooks sing-along, folks), I’ve realized that there are a good many things in my life that I’ve really REALLY wanted and prayed for. Some of them I’ve received. Most of them I haven’t. For the most part, I feel that my life is just […]