Ramblings of Silver Blue

I’m homebound for the weekend. Sicker than a dog. I can keep toast and gingerale down. So that’s something. Still. I’ll use all the positive energy I can get. Please???

“The question you must ask yourself isn’t, will you get a Happily-Ever-After? The question you need to ask yourself is, will you be able to live with yourself if you don’t let yourself have a happy-now, and end up having had nothing at all?”

Blessed. That’s how I’m feeling today. A complete feeling of serenity, of wholeness, of being transported to a place where I want to be. It’s not just the coffee making me feel warm and fuzzy. You all can just wonder about the rest. Keep Tink in your thoughts, please, as she goes through a few [...]

So, it’s been a while since we’ve had coffee together. I’ve missed it, folks. Sure, we may not have been close, but pull up a chair, here, have a cup. I’ll pour and promise not to dump it on your lap. I’ve got the tele on — I’m sorry, will people please shut the hell [...]

There’s going to be some changes around here. I’m tired of my whining about things. Coming off a night of zero sleep (long story, but let’s just say that certain incidents bleed over into over events in life, and if this negativity I encountered yesterday has destroyed my chances for happiness by bringing to the [...]

…is because some people don’t believe in stepping out on faith. My soul has been wounded, I’m not going to lie about it. Have we become a society where we trust no one, have faith in no one, and can take no one at face value? If we have, count me out. That’s not a [...]

Happy. – Moreso than I’ve been in over 20 years. Frustrated. – Saffyre needs rear tires. They’re large tires. They ain’t cheap. Happy. – Thanks to a friend, I’m able to get the tires (and installation) for less than a third of what the dealership was wanting. Elated. – This is a holiday weekend. Blessed. [...]

“To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting”. ~e.e. cummings

“Time and Tide” by Basia It’s hard for me to stop my heart love never knows when the time is right I don’t want to hurt anybody but can’t help loving you I never felt like this before I know this is special worth waiting for let life take take its course that’s the only [...]

One a few of you readers of the ramblings have written me, wondering what’s going on since I’m not my normal rambling self. Let me state, for the record: Nothing’s wrong. For once, I’m content. I feel good, about my situations, myself, and all that hoopla. Remember that being content does not equal being complacent. [...]

Hello everyone. Does anyone know a good dream interpreter? I had an interesting (at least to me) dream last night about my grandmother who passed away in 2004, and some photographs from my youth that she wanted, but I was reluctant to give her until I had scanned copies. (They were from instant developing Polaroids, [...]

…it usually finds a way to smack you in the head and make you listen. Take today. I haven’t been able to keep any food down due to myriad reasons. So, I came home early from work, which I almost *never* do. Really. It takes me almost being on my deathbed to even consider going [...]

Pull up a chair, people. It’s been one of those lives. I can’t say things are bad; but when things have been good for as long as they have, you really don’t have anywhere to go but down a few notches. After having a knot between my shoulder blades that just would NOT let go, [...]

It’s been a while since I poured myself a fresh cup and sat down to talk with everyone in the morning. Something’s happening in my life, to me, and I’m not sure what it is. I sleep about 5 hours a night. Sometimes less. The universe is slapping my face (figuratively, of course) via my [...]

I’ve found a certain few meditation exercises that have helped center me in the last few days. I’m thankful to everyone who has sent me their suggestions. Much love to those who have sent the same my way. Your help has not gone unnoticed or unappreciated.

I’m tired. Very tired. Not from being up and online chatting with friends either. I’m the kind of tired that only happens when one has to sit in the Emergency Room. Remember what I wrote in my last entry about someone tossing cookies? It got worse until PR woke me up at 1:20, begging me [...]

Well, let’s see. I made to to Go Diva!’s but due to a comedy of errors, her machine didn’t get hooked up tonight. That’s okay; she has to get a power strip, and we were waiting on the internet to be connected, so it’s all good. It was great seeing Picture Lady and Household Name [...]

Wednesday. My mind is at ease. I’m supposed to be going this afternoon to help install a computer at Go Diva!’s house, that is if PictureLady calls me with directions. I know she will. I’ve managed to lose another 1.2 pounds since Sunday. Puts me at an even 215. Woo-Hoo! Amazing what a minor shakeup [...]

It wasn’t a heart attack; they think it may be his gall bladder. They’re keeping him overnight for observation. He has to have an ultrasound and a stress test in the morning. If that is okay, then they’ll release him. Just thought you’d want to know.

Dad’s in the hospital, being held for observation of a suspected heart attack. I will keep you updated.

I asked the universe to give me a hint as to what I should do to improve my mood. (Backstory won’t be on the blog, sorry guys.) Answer: Put the ipod on shuffle, sit back, shut up, and listen. Kim Wilde: I Can’t Say Goodbye Celine Dion: To Love You More Lauren Christy: You Read [...]

Good morning people. I’m present and accounted for. Coffee is brewing, the workweek for me is starting. Life is no more clear for me this morning than it was last night. But maybe that’s because that’s the way it’s supposed to be for me at the moment. That’s my story, and I’m attempting to stick [...]

Title is from a Tim McGraw song. Ever have one of those days when you really can’t explain what is happening, why you feel the way you do, what is going on? Today was one of those days. Inside, I’m a mish mash of emotions. There are things I want to express, but can’t. Not [...]

Time for another historical perspective! This photo was taken Sunday, August 12, 2007. 216.2 lbs. Waist about 34.5" (yes, I was able to wear a pair of 34" Polo Ralph Lauren jeans, freshly washed and out of the dryer, on Saturday). Height still 72". Age: 38 years, 2 months, 22 days, 50 minutes, 6 seconds. [...]