Ramblings of Silver Blue

I could be contented I don’t need to suffer You’re beautiful Good to talk to You make an impression To take my attention And when you touch my skin I smell disaster Step away – walk away All i want is the real thing (nothing but the real thing) Walking on pavements We collect in [...]

an integral part of my life. I’m not naming names. I’m just saying. There’s a reason you’re part of my past. Please stay there.

This is one of those times when I actually invite you in. Normally, it’s stay at arms length or I bite. But seriously. Have you ever had one of those weeks where, for the most part, everything went better than you could have ever hoped (or prayed) for? This is one of those weeks. I [...]

One Heart Written by John Shanks, Kara DioGuardi Performed by Celine Dion One heart you are following… You can run And you can begin In a place Where you don’t fit in ‘Cause love will find a way When you’re down You can start again Turn around Anything you’re in Love will find a place [...]

The title is from a Pet Shop Boys song. We haven’t been in Ramblings 4.0 too long, and while my postings haven’t been of epic length, there’s been plenty of changes going on behind the scenes — not just external to myself, but inside as well. It is not easy… I’m learning, I’m feeling my [...]

Being someone who lived in the darkness for far too long in my 38 years, I have to admit that having a more positive outlook on life takes some getting used to. The entire detox process is not easy, but very necessary if I ever intend on being whole and happy with whom I am. [...]

I’ve found a certain few meditation exercises that have helped center me in the last few days. I’m thankful to everyone who has sent me their suggestions. Much love to those who have sent the same my way. Your help has not gone unnoticed or unappreciated.

I’m tired. Very tired. Not from being up and online chatting with friends either. I’m the kind of tired that only happens when one has to sit in the Emergency Room. Remember what I wrote in my last entry about someone tossing cookies? It got worse until PR woke me up at 1:20, begging me [...]

Well, let’s see. I made to to Go Diva!’s but due to a comedy of errors, her machine didn’t get hooked up tonight. That’s okay; she has to get a power strip, and we were waiting on the internet to be connected, so it’s all good. It was great seeing Picture Lady and Household Name [...]

Wednesday. My mind is at ease. I’m supposed to be going this afternoon to help install a computer at Go Diva!’s house, that is if PictureLady calls me with directions. I know she will. I’ve managed to lose another 1.2 pounds since Sunday. Puts me at an even 215. Woo-Hoo! Amazing what a minor shakeup [...]

It wasn’t a heart attack; they think it may be his gall bladder. They’re keeping him overnight for observation. He has to have an ultrasound and a stress test in the morning. If that is okay, then they’ll release him. Just thought you’d want to know.

Dad’s in the hospital, being held for observation of a suspected heart attack. I will keep you updated.

I asked the universe to give me a hint as to what I should do to improve my mood. (Backstory won’t be on the blog, sorry guys.) Answer: Put the ipod on shuffle, sit back, shut up, and listen. Kim Wilde: I Can’t Say Goodbye Celine Dion: To Love You More Lauren Christy: You Read [...]

Good morning people. I’m present and accounted for. Coffee is brewing, the workweek for me is starting. Life is no more clear for me this morning than it was last night. But maybe that’s because that’s the way it’s supposed to be for me at the moment. That’s my story, and I’m attempting to stick [...]

Title is from a Tim McGraw song. Ever have one of those days when you really can’t explain what is happening, why you feel the way you do, what is going on? Today was one of those days. Inside, I’m a mish mash of emotions. There are things I want to express, but can’t. Not [...]

Time for another historical perspective! This photo was taken Sunday, August 12, 2007. 216.2 lbs. Waist about 34.5" (yes, I was able to wear a pair of 34" Polo Ralph Lauren jeans, freshly washed and out of the dryer, on Saturday). Height still 72". Age: 38 years, 2 months, 22 days, 50 minutes, 6 seconds. [...]

I’m on my way to bed. The house is down and secure. I am more at peace this evening than I have been in a long time. Words escape me. I’ll try again after sleep. One word to sum up my inner self: Happy.

I went to dinner tonight. In a pair of 34″ waist jeans. So, in 4.5 months, I’ve lost about 10″ from my waist. 2 more inches to go. Woo Hoo!!!

Saturday, in the park… you’d think it was… nah. Last night ended up being 90% sleepless. So much on my mind, I did everything I could to attempt to wear myself out short of firing up the Wii and bowling unitl my arm fell off. Tink had requested I make a CD for her to [...]

Ramblings of Silver Blue has been relatively Ramble-lite as I have been re-centering myself, deciding what I want out of life, and where I want to go next. So much stuff behind the scenes… but they’re best kept in an offline journal. I may invite you in, but that doesn’t mean I see each and [...]

We’re having a summer heatwave…. and no, I’m not singing an old showtune. You know it’s going to be a scortcher when it’s 82 degrees before sunrise. yesterday, on the way home, Saffyre told me it was 102. All the way home. Heat. Oppressive. The Wii? Oh yeah. The Wii. More boxing. Some tennis. Lots [...]

After becoming addicted to the Nintendo Wii at my grandmother’s house (she loves bowling) on my trip to Ohio, and looking (no, SEARCHING) for one at regular retail (I’m sorry, but paying more than twice the price on ebay doesn’t interest me), I finally located one last evening. The good thing is that for the [...]

After my period of intense self-examination yesterday, along with my blogging of the same, I went and had some wonderful Chinese food, then came home and tried to pick up the pieces and put in something worthwhile. Nothing came to mind. Oh sure, I could have just rambled along, as I usually do, but I [...]

It’s been a strange month, my friends. I’m in the process of reconstructing my life from the ashes where I’ve burned bridges, but unfortunately, no bodies. In the interest of not having myself sued for harassment, I can’t give you the sordid details of my sordid life. What I *CAN* say, however, is that I [...]

I don’t believe you know me Although you know my name I don’t believe the faults I have Are only mine to blame Happy Sunday people. Countdown to the end (for now) of my “brush” with organized religion. Next Sunday’s it. There’s a backstory to it, but I really don’t feel like mucking up what [...]