Ramblings of Silver Blue

One of the problems that a few people in my life have had since I started the Body For Life program is that I don’t have as much free time to throw around as I used to.

Why?

Because I’m putting myself first, for once.

In fact, tonight, a full month ahead of my plan, I am actually going to hit the real gym that I’m paying over $18 a month maintenance fees to.

Yeppers, I’m back in to full swing. Which means tonight is a 46 minute workout. I’ve primed myself with the previous 3 weeks by doing increasingly difficult aerobic exercises for 20 minutes each evening. I’ve succeeded in losing inches and pounds. Now, it’s time to take the next step. Today, April 23, isn’t C1W4D1 (Challenge 1, Week 4, Day 1), it’s C1W1D1. I’m still eating correctly, but now I am making the pledge to myself to continue on the journey.

I was talking to PlayerPiano yesterday (yet another person who needs to be added to the cast), and was trying to find the words to explain why I had stepped away from some activities I enjoyed, and not finding the right words, she piped in, “Sometimes, you have to put yourself first to get right with yourself. Once you do that, the world will still be there.” Wise lady, she is.

I’m doing this for myself; I’m finding it hard to believe in myself from time to time (as is the case with everyone at one point or another in their lives), but then something like this happens, and it’s a welcomed boost to the self-esteem:

A coworker today told me that she felt I’d cheapened the award because I campaigned for it. My response? No, they cheapened it when they gave it as a “sympathy award” several years ago. In the current condition at CHK, I honestly believe that if you don’t ring your own bell, ain’t nobody else gonna do it for you.

You create your own universe. You invite the world in.